I killed it in the gym this morning. Drenched in sweat, hands shaking. I realized that I've been trying to figure so much out. This massive job, a relationship written in a different language. I have felt joy and satisfaction but it's been at the expense of feeling at all grounded.
I'm releasing both.
I'll still do my best, but my focus needs to be on myself. I absolutely have to nurture me right now. Not the company that I don't own, not the married man. Me.
The job will get easier.
Who knows what will happen with the man. But I will have to grow old with myself. I intend to do so surrounded by my best friends, feeling my most confident, humbled by love in all its forms.
I know myself, and I know that I don't love second place.
I am going to Mexico this weekend with two of my best girlfriends. This life is about deep friendships and travel.
I admit without reserve, I am all about ME.
Aloha.
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